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Jun. 11th, 2008

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new livejournal: swornanti_man.livejournal.com

add if you want.

Jun. 6th, 2008

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May. 27th, 2008

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not to sound like a complete fuck, but i miss the days when there was less shit-talking and all i did was buy and listen to records. now, everone hates eachother and i am broke.

May. 17th, 2008

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there is no human nature. there is only human behavior.

May. 11th, 2008

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"these Brandon kids can't handle our Sarasota shit".

May. 7th, 2008

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Why have I become such a stupid self-loathing piece of shit?

Apr. 9th, 2008

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I need to get out of Valrico. I'm glad that my experiences and interests have taken me further than the narrowmind of the suburban kids in my neighborhood. I would never hold it against someone for where they live, but I can't help it when I see the same people limiting themselves to the same old teenage indulgences(i.e. shopping at hot topic, snorting cocaine, etc.) when they don't know what really surrounds them. It makes me sick.
I'm lucky enough that I happened to be at the right places and the right schools at the right time. I've met the best people and had the most fun without getting wrapped up in all the stupid shit. 

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Spring break hijinks:

Apr. 1st, 2008

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Yep. GaryLee, AKA Gorton's Fisherman, is back...for real. I suppose all good things must come to an end.
Bummer.

Also, someone talked about me today.

I'm so cool.



P.S. SPRING BREAK 08!!1!1!  BRING ON DA BABEZ N SLURPEEZZZZZZ

Mar. 23rd, 2008

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Guitar class trip this past weekend. Fun as fuck. I had my doubts. I didn't expect to enjoy spending an entire weekend with kids at my school, but it was awesome. So many shenanigans.

The highlights: fun bus ride to Tallahassee, performance at FSU, drunk lady in Orlando offering us liqour and shit, sketchy hotel with an awesome pool, a day off at Islands of Adventure, and everyone seeing me run through their hotel rooms naked.


Hell yeah.

Mar. 19th, 2008

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UPDATE:
no such kidney infection. KP lives.

Mar. 18th, 2008

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A day to rant about.


The day started off normal until I began to feel excruciating, hiccups of tightening back pain. Needless to say, this made the remainder of my time at school and the hours following extremely difficult. After school, I began my usual leisurely walk into downtown Tampa. This time I included my good friend Eileen and we talked of life, sex, and shitheads at our school. A walk is the best place for this, I feel. We needed to munch on something delicious. We decided to waltz into a place neither of us have ever been. We had a hankering for some delicious pitas, so what the hey, let's go to Pita's Republic. The place was empty, and the guy running it was by himself talking on the phone. We realized we were in quite a predicament when we both only had five dollars. We decided the best thing to do was to order from the kid's menu. Clearly next to the "cheese pizza pita and drink" the price read $2.95. My colleague Eileen explained to the handsome employee that we both wanted that, but we were paying seperately. The cashier proudly says to Eileen, "that'll be $4.50!". Thinking there was some sort of mistake, I interjected with, "you know we're paying seperate right?", thinking that maybe he combined the orders. Then, as though a second head sprouted from my neck, he gave me a strange glare and said, "uuuuh, yeah, $4.50 for one cheese pizza pita". Hanging my head at what seemed to be my own stupidity, I paid the man $4.50. We sat down and began eating, finding that 1.)the sodas were flat, and since I didn't feel like doing anything about it, I just poured myself a juice. And 2.), after studying the menu several times to see if I made a mistake, we both came to the conclusion that we were clearly ripped off. It didn't really hit us as a big deal until we walked outside and an old man asked if we would mind buying him a sandwich. I explained to the man that since  we were ripped off by the asshole inside, we were out of money(of course he probably didn't believe me). Accepting our defeat, we reflected on the cruelness of people in general and what simply drives someone to do something so shitty and not feel any remorse whatsoever. We concluded that there simply is no middle ground. There are nice people who, therefore, are push-overs and can't be assertive. Or, cruel people that do shitty things to the push-overs. Absolutely unfair. This man did not know the extent to which he fooled two teenagers. Simultaneously, because this man had to be selfish, we had to suffer major setbacks. Went to a book store, didn't have enough to buy anything. Went to get drinks, luckily, I had enough for me and Eileen to get something at starbucks. It's a shame. We were crushed.

Shitty shitty shitty day.

p.s. i just found out about a second ago that my back pain may or may not be associated with a kidney infection. Fucking awesome.

Mar. 17th, 2008

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Sleep deprivation.

Too much...I never take the alone time that I so desperately need. I just want to sit on my bed and listen to My Bloody Valentine while reading Civil Disobedience over and over. I'll take my dog for a short walk so that I can be stared at by my neighbors. I won't talk to anyone. I'll only be able to talk about how much school sucks and I will be forced to listen to you talk about how much of an asshole your boyfriend is. I don't know any jokes and I don't have any stories. I'll just talk about people that I hate and how much I hate them, which you don't really care to hear about anyway. I know you're sick of my shit. So, instead I'll keep to myself if that's alright with you.

Mar. 16th, 2008

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It was a good day.


Except for dinner with Gorton's Fisherman. Thumbs down, lamb pit!

Mar. 9th, 2008

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ennui \on-WEE\, noun:
A feeling of weariness and dissatisfaction arising from lack of interest; boredom.

Feb. 20th, 2008

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It was a waste of fucking time. Too bad I was lead on like a fool for so long. What a shame.

Feb. 17th, 2008

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I learned something today. So many things in my life are put on a fucking pedestal.
I don't know why I work so hard to fulfill something that I can't even see. If that makes sense...
I get so happy with myself and the person that I am and the way things are going my life, that I don't understand how I could ever feel otherwise. But other times, I feel like something is missing. Maybe it's the fact that I haven't had encounters with the opposite sex since 9th grade.  Or possibly, I'm still bummed out somewhere about my parents splitting up when I was eleven and my dad being an alcoholic fuckhead. Or, I'm simply a weenie.

I need to snap out of it.

I'll say it again: I feel like all of the contempt and frustration from my past has allowed me to become a person I'm truly okay with. I know I've said it a million times before, but honestly, I don't know how I could live to be any other way. Everyday I take a big step outside myself to see who I am and where I'm at. I'm extremely lucky. I know this. So why the fuck do I care about all this petty high school bullshit?
It surrounds me.

Feb. 12th, 2008

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i wish i could do a backflip

Feb. 10th, 2008

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Yesterday:
Accidently cut myself with a pocket knife, got puked on by a dog, shot in the leg with a blow dart, elbowed in the face numerous times, got beer spilled on me, suffered allergies and excruciating back pain...

and still had the most fun I've had in a very very long time.


thanks.

Feb. 7th, 2008

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 I'm shivering. I'm overwhelmed. One disappointment after another. I'm constantly burying my head. 

Things aren't necessarily getting worse for me. It's just that...things that never used to bother me, are really fucking with my head now. I miss my old attitude. I never cared about anything. It was great.
I know that if I talked less to people that make me feel like shit and stopped all interaction, I would be much happier. I promise. 
I've changed. In some ways for the better, in others for the worse. I feel lately like I've settled down, but not in a good way. I'm more careless now. I'm hating more people, I'm never in a good mood anymore. I'm never excited for anything and I'm always mad about something. I don't like it. 

The less I think about everything, the better off I am. Why haven't I learned?   
 

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